The best news is that I do not have panic attacks from nine years. I am 57 years old and during 20 years I was taken possession of these paroxysms. And that were my best years.

During this time I had agoraphobia, I was feared to leave my home alone and this horror chased me many years.

I will return back and tell you how everything began and how I succeeded to get out of this nightmare.

The panic attacks began in 1978. As I stood on the chair my arms suddenly began to tremble; my hearth would jump from the breasts. All of a sweat I hardly succeed to breathe in.

Gradually I began to lose a lot of things – I lost my job, my car, my house /I sold it to have money for alcohol/. I became addicted to alcohol. When I was drunk the fear disappeared.

I wrote to Magda. In response she sent me a ritual, which I have to do each night for a month. The letter contained lots of valuable advices. They helped me to learn much about my suffering and now at the age of 57 I got about many places all over the world, I have my own business which brings me satisfaction.

I could’t bare my own child but I adopted a wonderful girl. She is very smart and teach me to be better and true person. She gaves me so much love and energy. When I adopted her she was at the age of six and now she is fourteen. I love her so much.

During these twenty years when I was living with the panic I didn’t manage to make any intimacy with a man. I have a husband from two years.

I went over the hell and lived there twenty years. Now, when I talk about about the panic disorder I have the feeling that I’m talking about another person.

Believe in yourself and do not give up! The panic will disappear, slowly but forever!

Tsetska L., Sofia